
I love being a mom. My two boys got sick this week. First it was Markus. We feared swine flu, but the doctor said it wasn't. He's now OK.
Now Ben is sick. I love caring for him, now that he's seven I'm not that scared anymore. He doesn't cry or vomit so much. I am getting a headache though. I slept from 4 to 9 am only.
I'm feeling kind of lonely. Trying to foster a child is very frustrating. We have been working on this since May. So much paperwork and a lot of disappointments along the way.
The amount of paperwork makes me want to cry and vomit and give up. But I can't stop now. We want to have a child this year.
My high school classmate's daughter is sick. Though they live far away I can't stop thinking of them. Her daughter is about my son's age and she has a relapse of leukemia after a stem-cell transplant.
I miss my friend.
My appetite is out of whack. I get hungry but food tastes like medicine.
I feel so sad today.
I'm worried about my eco garden. I don't know what I want.